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Last Thursday, I went to Chow Kit to close my NS bank account. As I figured, it wasn't rm300, but it was rm200. I cashed out the money, and went to KLCC to meet my sis. We really needed money at that time to go shopping..but no, we hardly used it. I reached there first and went up to the cinema area. I was about to line up when I saw someone really familiar. Of all places, of all people, who would have thought I would meet Shawn?? We talked a little while though it was kinda awkward as I've never expected anyone from my college to be at KLCC. Thankfully, my sis joined me in the line later on. We bought tickets, AVP2. The whole show was just full of bloody disgusting scenes and ended with a missile. That's basically it. Talk about waste of money. And erm, as well as time. After the movie, we walked around. She started talking about buying that stupid purse. I guessed from that point I got frustrated with her. I just walked out of her and went around by myself. We did meet up in the end, when we both said we wanna go home. Fine, we bought the tickets and took the train home. The whole journey was a complete silence. When we reached, she just went off without waiting for me, as if I was invisible. I saw the rapid kl bus left so I told her, and said to take a taxi home. She didn't want to be in the same taxi as me. So I went back without her. I completely forgotten that she was holding the house key. I had to wait outside of the house for about 30 minutes doing nothing. She is darn smart and not to forget a bitch coz she knew I will call when I couldn't find her and she knew I have to wait for her to unlock the gate.

• I saw 2 cats making love in front of my house. The female was pushing the male to her back where he can *** her. It was actually my second time seeing such things. The first time was 2 frogs over at NS.
  
• I saw a kid playing with his or her mother in the passenger seat. Her husband was driving. All of a sudden she pulled up her top and started breastfeeding the baby. I was like...omg? She didn't wear anything to cover it up! I think she saw me staring at her.
  

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The next day, my friends and I met up at GreenHut to have lunch. I met up with Jin first at kiosk and we walked together. Luckily she knew the way there and we didn't got lost like last time. KL and Nar was the first to reach and they were already at GreenHut. The first thing she did when she saw us was letting us sit the way she had decided. Sweat. Okay, she had her own purpose on doing that. The rest reached after us. Apparently Win Yee was the last as she had class before that. It didn't really make any difference as we had a hard time choosing the food we wanted. They had changed the menu layout, laminated it, and they brought up the price. We ate till around 4, discussing about our next big trip, countdown and shopping! Yess~ I desperately need.Shopping. Btw, we were supposed to order fried ice cream. What happened ar Nar? That's one of our main point of going there right? Our closing finale was all of us, as in the 8 of us camwhored since It is a necessity to someone. Haha, but we had fun laughing. Thanks everyone. I had a great time.

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On Sunday, my sis and I went to Traders Hotel to have buffet lunch with my relatives. The food weren't as good as the other hotels, but I had a lot of fun with them. Besides that, I think there was a high school reunion or something coz there were a lot of ppl (around 70 of age) and they were all wearing name tag. So it was kinda cool. I don't think I can imagine myself surrounded by my secondary class friends at that kinda of age. Don't underestimate the pensioners okay, they can eat much more than me. The best part was they even joked around wit me and my sis. Awww, so nice. After lunch, we went to this new highway that leads to KLIA, PutraJaya etc. It took about 20 minutes from Cheras to reach PutraJaya. Even though it was fast, but I don't find it interesting to spend over 3 hours visiting there. There was nothing there except nice buildings, nice view, nice artificial lake, nice 'displayed' bridge. That's basically it. I was really feeling uncomfortable as... okay, 5 adults siting behind a Camry. How comforting is that? My arse was numb by the time I reached my grandfather's house. It was b-o-r-i-ng. I just cant seem to appreciate it except thinking unnecessary resources had been wasted. My sis and I stayed back for dinner but we ended going back at 10pm.

Christmas Time

We had our first Christmas shopping last Friday at... Jaya Jusco. Yup I know, saddening rite. Of all places, we chose there. Well, we were supposed to just go to the supermarket but somehow, we just cant stop peeking in some of the clothing shops. Omg, I'm becoming a shopoholic! And it's all my sister's fault! It is she who introduced this whole clothing field to me. I can't believe I got so influenced easily. We had our lunch first at Old Town, and then we began. We stopped by a few shops, bought a few clothes, supplies and all. Nothing much. At the end of the day, I counted the amount we spent. I just realized that It is now becoming a habit of mine. Once again, we broke our record. And now we are seriously broke. This is only the 4th day ever since my parents left.

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On Saturday, we went to Ts to watch movie. The movie kinda sucks, but still.. it's cute and Jesse Mccartney's role is the fattest chipmunk! =) After movie, we went to Sg Wang to shop for awhile. Like I said, I cant help it. I need to go shopping! It's as if I got totally addicted to it. My sis chose for me a belt. Thank you god. Finally, I have one. In the afternoon, we went to the doctor for my sis's medicine. Had a hard time finding the place and we ended up in front of Pavilion instead. I was sweating like mad, trying to find the clinic. After we reached, she gave her card, and we walked to Pavilion back again. She kept on looking for a bag and purse from Roxy, Elle, and Esprit. What the heck? She said bags and purses can be expensive and branded since he or she will be using everyday. It is really a weird statement. Yiings already bought her a really expensive Guess handbag and she still want another one? What the heck again? She even said, once I grow up, I will understand. Haha, I do understand. Just, these type of things are not my type. Yet.

Anyway, we had lunch at Coffee Bean. Then we walked around for a few hours. Managed to buy something and finished off the last of the big notes from my mom's purse. Later in the evening, we went back to the clinic. Bought the medicine and went back to Sg wang. Right on time for the hotlink performance. Yay~ We saw Suki, John and 8tv hosts! Yes! Omg, John looked so cute. I didn't believe it at first, but when we went closer, he is seriously good looking. Suki is really pretty as well. And she can really sing! She even sang a new song for her new album, 'Never Say'. After watching Suki, we went for dinner at U-village.

P:s ~ I just found out Lin was there too. We went to the same places, yet we didn't have the chance to meet each other. We weren't as lucky as that day.

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On Christmas eve, we went to a relative's house for Christmas party. It wasn't really a party. Just some sort of gathering with all the unknown people. The good thing bout these parties is I get to see lots of babies, touch them and hold them. Not to forget, good food and red wine. Omg, I so want to get drunk again. Our Christmas present? Diarrhea the next whole day. So we didn't get to go anywhere. So much for the plan of having our own party at home. On the night of Christmas eve, I regretted asking. I should never have known the truth. Most importantly, I don't want to know more bout it anymore.

Looking Back

Yup, I have deleted the previous post. Was being to emotional/passionate/stupid bout something silly. Thanks guys, for being so caring. Really appreciate it.

v('' ,) <<---- My new trademark. So cute.

I sat there, looking at the clock in the exam hall, waiting patiently for the clock to strike 4.10pm. Finally. It reached. Exam finished, and holiday is here. I counted the days. It's exactly 4 months and 1 day since I became a college student. Even though with many ups and downs throughout this semester, I have never once regretted choosing this course, or rather this college.

Repitition

The history had repeated once again. I lost my touch n go card today. Wtfh. Second time in my life. Why the hell must I lose it when I just reload my card? Why must I put it inside my pocket where I can easily lose it? How and what am I suppose to tell my mom now? Don't think I will though. Maybe I can just buy a new one. Who knows? Looks like I have to go on a money diet from now on to make up for how much I lost. F*** lar. I just realized it's so much easier to have a card with me to travel to and fro. I gotta take real care of my things now. Don't take anything for granted. Appreciate them. Lol. Is this for real?

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Someone asked me before; what if u miss the station? i will always say, I got 6th sense, can wake up on time ^^.. Even if I did miss.. it's only just 1 station.. Yeah rite, This morning, as usual, I slept in the train. The next thing I knew was when I opened my eyes, the whole train was packed with ppl. How come? I mean, it's only 6.30am rite? And I already past Wangsa Maju station not to long ago. lol, what the hell? It was turning back! Wangsa Maju -->Kelana Jaya -->KLCC -->Ampang Park at 7.40am. That is the time when I gonna reach college! Damn man, really bad luck. I don't really care if i miss any of my class. Except for Econs class. Just as we were about to reach the most important section of the topic yesterday, the whole class black out. So, the teacher was suppose to make up for what she had missed, which was this morning, and I missed it. So Swt.

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Damn, she really hates me. She doesn't even wanna face me even though I said hi to Janice and her today. Well, just Janice actually. But, still.. she just looked away and ignored me. What have I done? I feel like confronting her, asking her what is happening btwn the both of us? I want to know what is in her mind. This is the second time I received these kind of treatment. The first was during high school, where we didn't talk for half a year or so. Anywayz, I tried talking to her, I tried to patch things up, but nothing much changed. I don't think she's the kind who gets upset easily right?Or maybe I don't know her. U see, the only time we get to sit together is during that maths class, which is only once a week. But, whatever she wanna ask, she will always ask Josh or Shavi. Excuse me, I'm just beside u? Or am I just invincible? For all I know, we didn't argue or anything, but we just gradually growing distance from each other day by day till it came a point when we never actually speak to each other at all. Well, she seldom have lunch with us nowadays. I dunno where she goes, but she should be with them. What else? These days she has been really close with WH and JaJa. I'm trying not to think negatively. Keep cool, and be happy always! =D

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My midcourse exam will be less than 2 weeks time. Can't wait for it to be all over. It's like sitting for Spm again. Just that it is only for 4 days. @.@' Then I will be free for 2 weeks! Study hard for my Maths especially! Gonna fail for my previous assessment.

Etc

Finally, dad bought for me a pendrive. It's so beautiful =) ~~

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Last Thursday, just when I started to open my book to study for my Econs and English test which will be held the next day, my whole neighborhood just went black for 2 hours plus. My sis was half way bathing. Lol, I gotta take a torchlight and aimed it near the door. After she finished, I light up a candle and put in on a plastic container. Really 'smart' idea. My mom still doesnt know about it yet coz I destroyed the proof already. Hahaha..

When it was first lighted up towards the end.. and now? In the recycle centre.

Work of Art

During Accounts class, the teacher assigned us a task, which was this :

Our Masterpiece (HeriG, Erica, Mabel and Myself)

My part ^^

Stop Cruelty Against Animals! I think it was the CIMP programme who organized this event. There were several booths in the cafeteria; some were passing some petition, some were selling tshirts, books, bookmarks and souvenirs. I dunno why there's a rabbit inside the cage for us to touch though. Guess it's to show how harmless and cute it is to us for being able to do such a thing to animals!

I bought 3 bookmarks. Actually I thought of buying for my friends, but there was no ducks and squirrels! I was thinking of chicken and beaver.. but still, it looked so wrong.

So, ended up, I bought this for Rm2 each. It's handmade by the way. The monkey is a lil hideous I know.

Ohana ^^

Shopping with sisters is the best! Whenever we hang out, we surely buy lots of stuffs. No matter what, we must buy something each even if it's just a necklace whatsoever. =) Our first outing was in Pyramid. Got to explore the whole area. Bought a few clothes. I just realized, all the things we bought is actually mine. @.@ It's like.. I chose all of them. Omg, I'm such a big spender! We spent around Rm312++. Uuks and I broke my record with Yoongs!! U noe, either I'm getting older, or either I'm studying at Sunway, I kinda look at brands these days. My clothes are no longer the big types which I used to buy, my earrings are long-er, and.. I love wearing accessories.! I'm changing..! Aaahhh, One thing is... I am now a girl. ^^ g-i-r-l-i-sh..Second thing is... I now always camwhore with my sis in the changing room. It's really difficult to have that skill. Haha. But I still feel I look ugly in the photos. So, so.. we watched Bee movie and we ate ice cream at Baskin Robin. That's another must as well. Haha! I brought my sis to have lunch at Subway. ^^ Love it~ Thanks to May2, I found out there's one! There was once I went to have dinner with my college friends.. the one serving me was kinda cute. Lol!! Wth man! When he asked me wat sauce I wanted, "Anything will do except chili". "Okay, no problem. I highly recommend u these". Lol lol. <^.^> Lin, u muz be very proud of me.. Hahaha!

In the changing room @.@

With my dearest Mum

On 11/11, Erica and I were suppose to meet together at Ts in the evening. It make things easier. So I went shopping with Uuks again on her birthday. Instead of buying clothes, we went for tubes instead. Lol. We tried to look for some nice clothings, but cant seem to find one. We were walking.. and walking.. still got nothing. In the end, we just simply choose one. Better than empty handed rite? Yes, we are wasting money. Just before the time I was suppose to meet with Erica, we went to that shop. Lol. Finally, I got 3/4 pants. I needed that for soooo long. I dunno why but.. I love that brand. All my bottoms are from there. Damn it, eventhough the size just isnt right. I choose the wrong size again. Now it's too loose. This time we spent less than before. Just Rm172+.. Okay, some of u might think I'm showing off... but i just feel like writing the amount over here.. This shows
how much I spend my dad's money.

Yes, I was so stupid of trying to act cute... tats why I deleted this photo in friendster already. I learnt my lesson. Hahaha!

Post something normal like this!

Animals! ^^

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Mom's handbag got snatched by a thief on the day my sis return home at Desa Setapak. The thief came behind her and just took it and ran away. My mom and dad chased him, but he was too fast. She was so stupid for doing that. Her leg is injured okay. She even have to wear some equipment thingy to keep it straight. The doctor asked her not to walk much. It's been months already since it happened. And now? She RAN. Why is she so stubborn? She fell down and her face knocked a car. I dun care whether the car is dented, I just care bout her okay. She don't know what happened either, but she just fell flat, and she was on the ground, looking at the sky. Somehow, I just couldnt help laughing. Dad was chasing the thief as well. Luckily, there was this malay guy who kicked him at the abdomen when that thief was just about to go to his partner who was on the motorcycle. He let it go, and tat malay guy returned the back to my parents. He's a soldier, and apparently he was wearing boots at that time. It sure hurts man. My mom thinks that the thief dropped his phone. The malay guy returned it to my mom, thinking it was hers. She said no no no.. she was carrying 2 phones in her hand. Haha! So she brought it back. The reason she chased after the thief was, her life is in there. All her cards and I/C. I understand but, what if the thief is on the motorcycle? U chased tat thief before.

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Yoongs came back from Aussie on Tue so we picked her up from KL Central. She herself bought so many things. Bags and clothes and surveniors~ which is for her friends. Very nice. I miss my sis a lot. We always go shopping together before she left. So now her mission of coming back is to go shopping and eat good food. She even asked my mom. "So what's the plan?" She just wants to eat eat eat. Especially crab. I dunno why she can still can be that skinny even though she loves to eat. After my exam, my parents and Uuks will be flying to Aussie for my bro's graduation. Oh yay, they're bringing him back! At least, my whole family will be back to normal. I rmb washing plates aft dinner. I rmb how frustrated I got when I need to study last time. Imagine having 7 members all under one small roof. =) Terry asked before, will u sacrifice for your family or friends more? I will be willing to sacrifice my family more.

Face It..

I will update on the nights I spent my weekend during the past few weeks. It might be quite some time ago, but just waiting for some pics to post it up here. ^^
Sneak Preview :

• Halloween Night
• Bbq + May's House
• The Curve + Squirrel's House
• Birthday Party + Erica's House

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I met a gal, Tania the other day at KJ station. She came up to me all a sudden, asking me whether I'm a SyUC student. For sure I said Yup! Then she started introducing herself and asking me for help to go to coll. "Do you mind if I follow you?" What the..?? Lol.. We started talking about stuffs, college, and our course. She's taking A Levels!. Her English is super good, it's like communicating with a White, with her slang. My goodness. Whenever I talk to someone who speaks better English than I do, I will tend to get a lil nervous, and my English will turn bad for no reason. Luckily she was nice.. and she did all the talking while I listened. We took rapid kl and bus 66 to coll. WE went to the library together, WE sat next to each other and WE exchanged phone numbers. She was reading a magazine just before her physics test, but her notes was really nice; damn a lot of colours. I learnt something though... Everyone, please brush up your English. That's it.

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He is seriously getting a lil annoying these days. Sometimes, I just cant help myself but to run away from him whenever I see him. Goodness, what's happening to me? Why is it always like that? During primary school, tuition, National Service... and now, college. Wherever I go, there is always one annoying person in my life. I'm evil I know. Why am i complaining when there is someone who *** me? People would have asked me to appreciate them, give them a chance and all. I dunno why but, love is always one sided. It's either me or them. Lol! Somehow, I think WY said somethin to him the other day, making him not bothering me as much as before. Ppl kinda got used to it already, but once again. Ms Helen! She brought up the matter again. In front of the whole class, she asked him, "How's your Yen Yen?" What the ...??? If I was there, she wouldn't have said that. I noe she wouldn't. Not only that, when he and I were just about to leave the cafeteria, we saw her and Ms Angela. Guess what she said? "See.. caught u red handed!" Again, with that big smile. Kinda think of it, it was really funny. I like her a lot. Even with using the word fish.. As in fish for a name; Fish Leong.. she can make the whole class laugh. Okay.. by next month, he will be joining Terry and I almost everyday to and fro. That sucks.

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The first time I took my assessment for English (Personal Writing), I failed. Failed horribly. It was the first time I feel my English is really bad. I almost broke down in front of Ms Helen when I saw the paper. She was like.. "Yen yen, what happened? ... " I dunno! I thought I did okay, but ended up I only scored 30%. After class, I just rushed out of the class and cried. Erica was really nice, she comforted me, saying it's not that my English sucks, just that I went out of topic..that's all. But why on earth it has to be English?? In order to get into Monash, I have to score 65% minimum for that subject okay. For my second assessment (Expository), the one I had was even worse. 'Censorship hinders nation building. Discuss.' Erm.. what's the meaning of hinder? I even asked Ms Helen to lend me a dictionary for a while. "No, you are not supposed to do that. U are supposed to bring ur own". I know! But I totally forgot about it. I just guessed. I got back my result yesterday. I looked at my marks..and ... @.@ Super high! Hahaha! Even higher than Tiff and Terry. Omg, was so proud of myself. ^^ Hopefully this will continue to go on for the next assessment (Argumentative), which will be tomorrow, with Econs assignment test.

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With the new timetable, everyday is just classes. 4 times a week, 1 1/4 hours a day per subject, and from 8.30am till 4pm. Things couldn't go any better. With Econs, Maths and Accounts.. My work will be never ending, keep on compiling till the end of this semester. At least my Csc assignment is done! Now left the research project. Gonna be so dead after this. Moreover, mid course exam will be in middle of December, and on my sis's birthday. Anywayz, everyday there is this common break where all Mufy students can have their lunch. We thought it will be a problem at first, but turned out it wasn't as bad as we thought. Besides getting tired day by day. Sometimes my friends and I will have lunch outside, either in Orange, Pink or Medan. Basically these are the famous ones. U will see lots of Mufy students there, all come in big groups. Okay, I finally figured out who are the members of my group are; Tom, Terry, Erica, Tiffany, May Ling, Weng Yue, HeriA, HeriG, myself.. and + Aaron? I don't know whether they consider him as part of our gang or not. Pink shop definitely is t-h-e place for us to discuss 18sx topics. Lol. Reminds me bout Maju Curry House. xP Tempat menjana idea. Miss those times.. ^^

I dunno but, she doesn't seem to always look at me in the eye when we, as in a few of us, talk. Whenever she wanna show something, she will show the others first. I will always have to look by the side. Is it just me being ultra sensitive or what? I guess only I myself having problem with it. Somehow, I just feel sad.. for not being close to her as I used to. We used to talk a lot of things together. But now...? When she is with me, she will either be on the phone or she will find others to chat. What bout me? There are days where I can find myself really moody.. I just cant really click with others, I used to be so closed to him, him, him, him, her and HER. But now? I cant find any topic to talk about. Weird huh? Help me! I'm starting to keep my mouth shut everyday! I need some help on learning how to communicate with human being!

Secrets That Cannot Be Told

Updated on 6th Nov 2007

Everyone is lying down on the bed. And myself? Blogging. It's already 3 something..and I'm still up. I don't want the day to end so soon. The beginning of the week is coming and we have to start all over again. Classes, tests and friends. I'm just tired. I'm sick of it. I need a break! And that will be in December. Not long from now. But it also means that my mid course is coming. I'm in deep shit now. I haven't started studying and all, I haven't chosen my topic for my research project, I haven't make up my mind on what I really wanna do.. basically, I'm wasting my life.

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Recently, there's this 1 rumour spreading among the students as well as among the teachers. It all started with Harish, at the 2nd floor foyer. He just said that word. Lol, Aaron didn't answer, but he just went on laughing, down on the floor AND he went all red in face. Believe me, it was that red. It's so not his style. He's the type who will never care bout things like this. Shavika was there, Harish, Erica as well as HeriG. Pls don't do this in front of Heri please. I don't want him to know. Harish was chasing Aaron the whole way and was teasing him continuously. Lol. Luckily, one of the lecturers scolded them for making so much noise. Thank you so much. Terry did mention before bout this. I wonder if this true? Kinda think of it, I rmb him buying bus ticket for me. I mean, from Audi 7 to the financial dept. It's really far, and Malaysian Studies was about to start. Then I rmb him running to the lecturer just to get the notes for me. I rmb him with the waffle and bubble tea as well. Haha, that was really funny. I rmb being with him in the library with that 'stalker' by our side. I rmb him always pushing my head, messing with my hair, knocking me etc. Even with all these memories, he's still too childish. He's not my type of guy. Ever since the day Harish asked, he kept on pursuing Aaron to ask me out. Lol. Excuse me? Last Wednesday was even worse, Hong Kong shouted in front of everyone in the 2nd floor foyer, saying that I'm Aaron's gf, when everyone's class just over. My goodness! Right in front of Ms Helen. Luckily I wasn't there. Or not, where am I suppose to put my face? Great, Shaq was questioning me, Marcus was talking 2 Josh bout me. Meena was talking to me about him. She actually asked him 2 weeks before, and he did that same thing again. Lol? She said that news kinda stopped a while. She didn't know how it came back. Omg, I didn't noe that! She even said that he kept on talking bout me to them. Ms Helen helped spreading the news. Aaron is famous for his annoying attitude, so they tend to tease him more than me. That's good. Nothing more will ever happen btwn the both of us for sure. Maybe, the reason for all these is because I can tolerate with his attitude more compare to the rest. That might be it. Yup, I'm sure of it. Then there was once, I was sitting with Aaron...we saw Ms Helen. She was giving signal with that big smile on her face. Lol, so swt.

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HeriG, please don't misunderstood. I didn't mean it that way. I have never even thought of it that way. I just asked for the fun of it. It's not a signal okay. No wonder, ur personal msg used to be those words. I was wondering who was it for. On the next day he found out bout Aaron, he sms-ed me. He said he wants to talk. Just me and him. I got scared. I wonder what would he think? Luckily it wasn't really what I expected. We cleared off some stuffs btwn the both of us. He learnt this method through yoga class. And it worked! Seriously, it does. Now we both returned to normal. Thank god.. Well, about his brother? Somehow, he's more unique, which I dunno why. That was what Terry said to us too. I love to see his face! In fact I still smile every time I see him, coz he got this extremely shy look which can make anyone trust him straight away. Take note, I might be exaggerating a lil over there. He got this really quiet attitude and he's really hardworking. Too bad he doesn't really speak much of English. But he's learning. He's always with the dictionary. What more, I just found out that he got bronze medal for physics competition. Out of whole of Indonesia and he got 100 for Maths B for 2 previous tests. Really really smart. I don't believe it, I'm interested in a 'nerd'? @.@' Interested as in to noe him more as a person. Nothing else. So no worries! Hahaha! This afternoon, when the Tom, Li Ching and Erica sat in one table, Terry and HeriG went to their side and they started talking a lot about the yoga thingy. When May reached the cafe, she also went to their side. Even all that, Heri and Aaron was nice enough to stay with me. At least Weng Yue and Tiff also did join us. We became 2 separate groups. Somehow, it's like we were being abandoned by a whole bunch of ppl u see. I guess they're really just college friends. It's not the same like how it goes for animals and I. They're just not the same.

*****

There's this girl. I've been jealous of her for quite some time now. It's like how Lin felt towards a girl. I understand how it feels like. Sometimes, u just cant stop feeling jealous. Even if u don't want to but u just can't help it. Let's face it. She's cute, she's talkative, she always makes things really interesting, she loves making jokes, she CAN turn anyone to be her good friend, she's a really nice person. Most of all, she's always in the center of attention whenever she goes. She will be the 1 who do the talking most of the time. She somehow sort of knows everything. Who can't help feeling that way? Especially if that person is in the same class as u, for ALL subjects. Cool huh? Everyone noes her name. I don't think many noes mine. Not that I really care of, but sometimes, I want to be the one. I want to be someone. I sometimes feel that, no matter how hard I try, there's no way I can beat her. I just can't be her. Whenever I talk to someone, I kept on comparing myself with her. How she will always get ppl to laugh and all. There's always sparks in her you know. Seriously, I feel really insecure. I'm not the type who can talk much. I do have a hard time expressing how I really feel, unless i get really close with someone. One thing is, I don't think she likes me much. She's always with Mabel, that's for sure. No matter how hard I try to help her, she will always turn to Mabel first, or just anyone before me. Even if I score better in the subject than the both of them. Not that I'm showing off, but she...will always try to help her whenever she could. In csc lab, she purposely changed her seat to be with Mabel. Don't you get it? It somehow reminds me of Ns as well. Like how Mato treated me and Yi Ping like that. We're not substitutes okay. I hate it! It makes me feel so lonely inside. I don't want Mabel to join csc back. It made things worse now. They will always sit together and blab throughout the lesson, while me staring at the teacher all the way. Then, they will leave me behind, while I have to go with Kim and Tanrin. Mostly, I'm always alone. Even during Acc class, HeriG will now sit with her. Last time, I used to wait for them but they never even think of doing anything like that to me okay. It hurts.. it hurts so bad. Imagine someone u noe does that to u all the time. I dun give a damn bout it anymore. I just walked off with Janice. But, I care about how others treat me. I want someone who cares bout me. Maybe, that's y I dun mind Aaron disturbing me. Maybe, it's because he will always come to me no matter where I go. He came on his own. This is what I want. This is what I only need from a person. To have someone who cares for me, and will always be by my side. Why can't I find someone like that? My goodness, I'm being too emo. Cut the crap.

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"Yao Yuen Mou Fan". I learned that word from Erica. It's seriously true. Even if u like someone, somehow, the friendship will never go further than it is now. I wonder who I thought of first? Is it him... or is it another person? Who knows? If I didn't go for it, possibly it might even happen. He can even remember that. And, I really really love his birthday wish. That's for sure. He was almost perfect. Our characteristics are almost similar. I wonder how we got so close last time? He did not even make me feel nervous at all. He's not the type who can mix around with ppl, especially girls but then...why? The memories we had together are just too precious for me to let go. =) I will always cherish it forever.
The night I went out with my friends, SJ heard me talking to Jin, she was asking.. is it him?? I immediately said no. I'm trying to deny that fact u know, even though it is a lil true. Just a little. And that was last time. Not now. I think. She even asked me not to fall in love with him before. Jin was saying.. dun ever be the 3rd party. U wont like it if someone does this to you. Yes, yes.. I understand.. My goodness, with the new timetable, I will be in the bus with him almost everyday. May did tell me it was kinda obvious. She said I act differently when I'm with him. Is this true? I hope not. But when I'm with him, I will always think more. That's why I sometimes can get really quiet.

*****

It doesn't matter if we will meet again,
It doesn't matter if you will remember me,
I just want to tell you a secret,
I love you...

Happy Moments

I should have blogged bout this outing last 2 weeks, but I didn't have the time to do so. I mean, ever since I returned to college. Every Saturday used to b my family day. However, all good things have to come to the end. My grandfather's birthday turned out to be exactly the same date as jin. Weird huh? I never knew that before. Hehe~ Went to college on that day to touch up Malaysian studies. Nothing much, instead of doing our work, we ended up looking for online games. Haha! And went to pyramid for lunch. I saw jin there?? Lol! At Jusco food court. Omg! So unexpected. She just tapped on my shoulder from the back while May and I was bz choosing food. Lol! Was so happy to see the both of them. My parents picked me up from college to 1u. Uuks and I walked around for awhile. Nothing much actually, just about the same as other complex. Luckily I went there before, so I sort of noe where to go. Went to Shogun for dinner. I have never eaten Japanese buffet before. Love it~ Things got busy. Everyone had a hard time choosing food coz there's too many choices. Sitting opposite my table was Sunway karate club. Erm..? Excuse me? Guess who I saw? HeriGunawan. Hahaha! But I didnt really noe him much that time. I just said Hi. That's it! Well, that was just the beginning. We did talk after a while.

Say hello to cutie monkey~ Don't be mistaken. It's the monkey itself. NOT me.


We camwhored a lot. I wonder what would the rest think?


First choice. Actually there's more. I ate some of it.


The baked cheese oysters beat the tempuras!


Japan Vs Thailand


Can't help myself. I need sushi.


Second helping. See the steam egg? That's good too! Life is meaningless without eggs.

Dessert!

*****

Simple yet delicious~ Love cheese cake!! My fav~


Happy 96th birthday Ah Ye Ye~ He's really cute and sporting over it. Love you so much.. He even gave a speech. Though I can't really understand much.


Family means nobody gets left behind... or forgotten.
P/s : It came out in The Star Metro =P

Trip to Highland

I actually thought of ditching them before. I guessed I was just scared. Scared of being with my so called partner. I wrote the msg halfway, somehow I deleted it. Instead, I asked.. who's following? So it's just 6 of us. For me, it started out badly. I reached there kinda early, thought of meeting him..but he was with his gf. Don't feel like becoming a lamp post, so I just walked around myself for a while. Tom and Ficent then reached around 12.45pm. The bus was supposed to leave at 1pm and May and Sereena haven't even arrived yet! They arrived later, with their bags filled with junk foods, clothes, and laptop. Seeing them carrying those stuffs is understandable, but the guys? Lol, it's like how kl brought on our first trip! In fact, it was more than hers. They were all asking how come i can fit all in just a handbag and a plastic bag. There's not much things to bring right? So we took the 2pm ride. We then took the Skyway and checked in First World. While waiting to check in, May and I played around with the clowns..we even asked for a swan and a heart shape balloon..Hee! So pretty! Love it..

The girls slept in a room while the guys slept in another. The 3 of us talked while waiting for Tom and his friend to unpack. As usual our topics were mainly on girls' problems. After they were done, (Including the camwhore part) all of us jalan jalan around the indoor theme park to find food. We decided to eat at Pizza Hut. I dunno but.. when I was there, I kept on thinking bout my own friends..times when we had so much fun. Omg, I can't help saying this but I really miss my friends. After dinner, we went to Haunted Adventure. The theme that time was Van Hellsing in 3D. Waste my money.. it wasn't scary at all. And there were no ghosts to be seen!! Bad choice. Later on, Terry, Sereena and May tried their luck on getting into the casino. Lol, they got in!!~ The guard didn't even say anything! Though he did look at them suspiciously. Haha! We went to the arcade and played.. Had lots of fun.. especially the basketball!! KL and I once broke the record..our marks were stated at the machine at Ts!! Yeah, showing off. Sereena pulak went super high on The Pitcher and Terry kinda got caught by her. Pity him.

Around 11 plus, we went back to our room; took our bath and changed to our pyjamas. May brought her cards...so we played Cho Dai Di, Heart Attack and...Spit!!! Haha! Yeahhhh, I beat Terry in Spit!! So proud of myself. Err.. Sereena?? @.@'' Be sporting a little bit lar~ She did joined us for Pictionary. 3 guys vs 3 girls and I was the first to draw.. with my eyes close. Wth? How am I suppose to draw Death Valley?? I had to draw and they have to guess in 1 minute!! Not only me, but we all took turns to draw. I laughed till my muscle also ached. The last part was really intense~ Thanks to May, G-I-R-L-S W-O-N! I seriously had lots of fun. Nothing much after that, Sereena just showed us some of her animes and So You Think You Can Dance.Getting tired~~ Finally, the guys left at 4am.

*****

Woke up at 9am. I got ready and woke the rest up. We had to find food. Again. May was saying about the hidden place where we can get roti canai cheap. Straight away I thought of Jin. I called her. Thanks to her.. we found our way. Sereena was complaining.. the food was too spicy while Terry's one, really inedible. When we finished, we went to the outdoor theme park. May and I went for the Merry Go Round. Lol.. Just that ride, we camwhored a lot as well. (They came a few mins later). The worst ride I had was the tea cup. Omg~ he turned so much till I got really dizzy.. I can just make myself vomit at that time. Cockscrew didn't make Sereena feel better. In fact, she vomited!! Twice.. Kinda disgusting. For lunch, we went to the Chinese place opposite the theme park. Come to think of it, it wasn't really the suitable place for Terry and Sereena. May and I were saying, maybe they're not the kind who can get used to food like this. For the rest of the afternoon, it didn't really go what I had expected. Maybe, I'm growing older. Wasn't as fun as it used to be. Somehow, things changed. Flume Ride. The guys were thinking of 2 person per boat. What did they mean by try not to sit in the middle? Ended up, 3 vs 3 once again. Now I know why. Even from the start, they splashed water on us. Wat the...!! We got really wet when we finished. Other ppl were looking at us.. even a group went off after seeing us in that condition. Lol. we wanted to take revenge, so we then took the boat after the guys. It didn't go any better. Tom took out his umbrella and shield themselves, or rather just him and Ficent. Hahaha! It was really funny. We thought of sitting Spiderman again, but we were freezing so we went back to our room to bathe.

Damn, I got no extra pants and jackets to wear! I followed May, she and I wore shorts. I even borrowed Tom's jacket. Lol. Sereena couldn't stand it. She was too tired to play any longer. The rest of us went for our last ride. It was not as smelly as before, and it was really fun. Luckily May and I went for it instead of following Sereena. We left the theme park and decided to watch movie at 10.45pm; Bourne Ultimatum. Therefore while waiting, they played pool. I just watched. I know the rules better now and guess what? I'm getting interested in it. I feel like asking daddy to teach me like how he did last time. I really want to learn now. After the movie, we went back to our room. Sereena started with her ghost story, then followed by Terry and May. I was so tired that I can barely listen to what they had to say. Tom was already curled up at the edge of our bed. After May told her experience on 'them', all of us were feeling uneasy. We ended up sleeping in the same room. If my mom knows about it again, she'll kill me!! It happened before when my sisters and I stayed with Glenn and Godcheah. If that was bad, the one I had was worse. It's totally wrong to both my parents and his gf. Why wasn't I bothered bout it? What I most afraid of is I don't mind u know. The fact is, I don't mind it happened. I'm changing, I can feel that. We are close. But it's more or less like brother and sister. Or maybe more to best friend? Just my own thinking. My goodness, I couldn't sleep the whole night. I was squashed between the both of them. I tried pushing, but just wouldn't move. I tried changing my position, but there was barely enough space. So swt. I was thinking bout the stories they told us throughout the night. I didn't even dare to look at my watch.

*****

The next morning, we woke up at 10.45am. Packed our stuffs and left the hotel. Stored our luggage in the hotel. Then we went to arcade once again. My hand became really itchy, I wanted to play so many things. I don't wanna go back to my old self again. I just played basketball. Hee...they played The Pitcher. Total points we got was 2100. Not bad for just 2 days. Haha.. Terry and Sereena chose the bigger prize while the rest of us chose the smaller ones. Had lunch at McD, and tried our luck at the casino again. May this time couldn't go in. I was behind Tom and Ficent when the guard asked for their I/C. Straight away I went off from there. Haha! Sereena even bought hotdogs and fishballs from inside. Lol. We took our luggage and went for the cable car. On the way down to the bus station, we camwhored a lot as a group. Haha! But it didn't really work, coz there's always someone's head missing. We bought our bus tickets to gombak. In the bus, I had to choose either him or her to sit with. I know I'm suppose to sit with him, he will too if he was me. I chose to sit with her instead. Why did I do that? But, it was really fun. We watched our photos 2gether in her laptop. The both of them were so gay when they took pics together~~ We reached terminal putra at 6+ All of us took the train.. and went home.

*****

Lol, Posers..


Why r we squatting?? @.@


Lookie my butt and sereena's!!!


Total of 10 ppl in this pic


Japanese setting at Genting!!


Me and the 2 Gays~


This pic proof how wet we were


Posing..again


1st pic with all of us inside!!


5+1/2

Fairy Tale

This clip is really really nice! Really touching. Like it a lot.

Love,
Cashewnut89
Porcupine89

The Voice Within

After Maths test, which was on Thursday.. we went for a movie at 1u, the 8 of us. Haha.. Our outing, was it a disaster like he said? Don't think so. Wai Horng sent us there around 6 plus. Bought the tickets which was a 9.15pm movie. Wat the..? How am I suppose to go back?! It wasn't Resident Evil but The Seeker. Later on, we split to 2 groups and went for dinner. The reason was, Jason suggested to eat at Delicious. Not sure what was the name. But it's a really expensive Italian restaurant. Some of us weren't okay with it. So Wai Horng, Tom, Shao Yen and I went to Genki Sushi instead. Yeah, coz I'm closer with them then the rest. Our dinner turned out to be rm60++ Lol, which was almost equivalent to theirs. Sort of. During dinner, we just talked. Kinda fun actually, plus I got to know Wai Horng more now. =) After dinner, went to the bowling alley and they played snooker. Nabilah and Jason were real pro. So malu, I don't wanna play in front of them! Besides, I don't exactly know how.

For the movie, it was really nice. The movie ended bout 11pm. Damn swt. Okay fine, I gonna reach home around 12am. Dad will still able to fetch me from the station. T asked Wai Horng sent the rest back to their hostel first while T and I tried to find a way to look for the parking ticket. Lol, he lost it! First, we went to the parking lot and tried to contact the security help from the machine. No answer. We found a ticket on the floor dated 12.26am on 4th October. Tried our luck on the machine. Not readable. Tried getting help from the security guard himself. He was so blur, not knowing what to do.. he just asked us to wait while HE get help. I was signaling T already.. coz it was really late. Even if we did find the ticket, the train will be closed by then! I followed T back to the cinema and looked. Man, it's so easy to sneak into the cinema to watch movie for free. Tried our luck on calling the security. He asked us to wait. We were like.. Swt. T kept saying the outing today was a total disaster; dinner, movie and the parking ticket. Kept saying sorry to me. It's OKAY ok. I don't mind. Just my parents. Uuks called me lots of times to contact me though, coz I kept ignoring her calls. What am I suppose to say? Reach home around 1am? How is dad gonna wait? Finally, I said my friend will send me back. Which wasn't entirely true. I don't give a damn anymore. Then, the security guard came and brought us to the department. T had to pay rm13 instead of rm20. At last! We got to leave 1u, at 11.45pm. He sent me to KJ station, saying wanna accompany me till I reach home. Guess what? Closed~~

His elder sis called me and asked him to send me back home. All of us weren't to sure of the way though. Then T said, "Do you mind staying over at my place?" I was like, what can I do? Hahaha. So I went back to his place. Luckily his parents weren't at home. I stayed at his parents' room. @.@ Things were turning weirder and weirder. Coz it was his first time a girl staying over his house and it's my first time stayin over at a guy's house. Swt. After taking my bath, he came to the room and brought his tarot cards and the ball thingy. I don't even know what question to ask. He tried once but that didn't work out. So, we ended talking. He said he didn't feel awkward being with me, as a girl.. which apparently a really good thing. I guess we both broke our records today.

--+ One : Staying with an opposite sex. +--

:: Imagine my parents were to find out. They will kill the hell out of me. I can't help it but to lie to my mom, saying that I stayed overnight at my girlfriend's house .

--+ Two : Had a heart to heart talk with an opposite sex +--

:: That was actually his first time talking bout all these stuffs to someone. So sweet. I never expected him to be like that. There's more in him than I thought. He even showed me his secondary pics. Wow, he really changed a lot. From last time till now. We talked till bout 2.15am? Around that time I think. Lol, I sort of glad that it happened.

*****

I wore his sister's clothing to college. His grandfather just said hi to me in the morning? He didn't look surprise at all eventhough T didn't even tell that I was staying overnight! He said maybe it's a common thing for him. Ermm.. no comment on that. He drove me to college. Just a few mins a way from is house, a car knocked his car! Wth? The scratches were really obvious. Goodness, his father is gonna kill him. Nothing else, reached college and went to class empty handed. I don't have my notes with me. Tiffany and Erica were like.."How come u never bring anything today?" "Er.. I forgot". Am I supposed to say that I stayed at T's house? Lol. Never! Then, there's one time when Tom and Erica were talking bout they both not allowed to stay overnight at friends house. If I'm not mistaken lar. All I knew that my heart just lurched when I heard that. I knew he was feeling the same way as well.

Anyway, we didn't use much of our notes except for Econs today. Lucky me. In fact, I got back my Acc result. My marks wasn't really bad. =D English class ended really early. So, had lunch with Tiff, Terry, Aaron, Herianto, Felamon, and HeriG. Had a great time..! Heri is soooo cute!! He eats like a small kid. Terry was saying he's too innocent.. and I really agree on that. So many ppl asked help from him on maths coz he scored full marks on the previous test. Besides, I don't think he's the type who can say no to ppl. Janice~~ Quickly plan on the skating thingy.. Hahaha.. During the last period which was Malaysia Studies, Audi 4 was kinda empty. It is already small yet there's still so much space. So many ppl didn't attend for class that day. I sat next to Aaron and Tiffany. Since the day I taught Aaron Acc, he and I became quite close. But, he's a really one weird guy. He can't sit still. He will always find something to entertain himself. He can laugh for no reason, which is practically almost every minute. He gives up easily and doesn't even try. Weng Yue was asking Tiff whether we're dating or not? Erm..just coz we're close doesn't mean we will be a couple rite? Then Tiff and I are lesbians? =X Oh shit, Andrew and Wai Horng were behind us. Of all days. I wonder what would they think? I wonder what would Andrew think? 'It' happened before.