Updated on 6th Nov 2007
Everyone is lying down on the bed. And myself? Blogging. It's already 3 something..and I'm still up. I don't want the day to end so soon. The beginning of the week is coming and we have to start all over again. Classes, tests and friends. I'm just tired. I'm sick of it. I need a break! And that will be in December. Not long from now. But it also means that my mid course is coming. I'm in deep shit now. I haven't started studying and all, I haven't chosen my topic for my research project, I haven't make up my mind on what I really wanna do.. basically, I'm wasting my life.
Recently, there's this 1 rumour spreading among the students as well as among the teachers. It all started with Harish, at the 2nd floor foyer. He just said that word. Lol, Aaron didn't answer, but he just went on laughing, down on the floor AND he went all red in face. Believe me, it was that red. It's so not his style. He's the type who will never care bout things like this. Shavika was there, Harish, Erica as well as HeriG. Pls don't do this in front of Heri please. I don't want him to know. Harish was chasing Aaron the whole way and was teasing him continuously. Lol. Luckily, one of the lecturers scolded them for making so much noise. Thank you so much. Terry did mention before bout this. I wonder if this true? Kinda think of it, I rmb him buying bus ticket for me. I mean, from Audi 7 to the financial dept. It's really far, and Malaysian Studies was about to start. Then I rmb him running to the lecturer just to get the notes for me. I rmb him with the waffle and bubble tea as well. Haha, that was really funny. I rmb being with him in the library with that 'stalker' by our side. I rmb him always pushing my head, messing with my hair, knocking me etc. Even with all these memories, he's still too childish. He's not my type of guy. Ever since the day Harish asked, he kept on pursuing Aaron to ask me out. Lol. Excuse me? Last Wednesday was even worse, Hong Kong shouted in front of everyone in the 2nd floor foyer, saying that I'm Aaron's gf, when everyone's class just over. My goodness! Right in front of Ms Helen. Luckily I wasn't there. Or not, where am I suppose to put my face? Great, Shaq was questioning me, Marcus was talking 2 Josh bout me. Meena was talking to me about him. She actually asked him 2 weeks before, and he did that same thing again. Lol? She said that news kinda stopped a while. She didn't know how it came back. Omg, I didn't noe that! She even said that he kept on talking bout me to them. Ms Helen helped spreading the news. Aaron is famous for his annoying attitude, so they tend to tease him more than me. That's good. Nothing more will ever happen btwn the both of us for sure. Maybe, the reason for all these is because I can tolerate with his attitude more compare to the rest. That might be it. Yup, I'm sure of it. Then there was once, I was sitting with Aaron...we saw Ms Helen. She was giving signal with that big smile on her face. Lol, so swt.
HeriG, please don't misunderstood. I didn't mean it that way. I have never even thought of it that way. I just asked for the fun of it. It's not a signal okay. No wonder, ur personal msg used to be those words. I was wondering who was it for. On the next day he found out bout Aaron, he sms-ed me. He said he wants to talk. Just me and him. I got scared. I wonder what would he think? Luckily it wasn't really what I expected. We cleared off some stuffs btwn the both of us. He learnt this method through yoga class. And it worked! Seriously, it does. Now we both returned to normal. Thank god.. Well, about his brother? Somehow, he's more unique, which I dunno why. That was what Terry said to us too. I love to see his face! In fact I still smile every time I see him, coz he got this extremely shy look which can make anyone trust him straight away. Take note, I might be exaggerating a lil over there. He got this really quiet attitude and he's really hardworking. Too bad he doesn't really speak much of English. But he's learning. He's always with the dictionary. What more, I just found out that he got bronze medal for physics competition. Out of whole of Indonesia and he got 100 for Maths B for 2 previous tests. Really really smart. I don't believe it, I'm interested in a 'nerd'? @.@' Interested as in to noe him more as a person. Nothing else. So no worries! Hahaha! This afternoon, when the Tom, Li Ching and Erica sat in one table, Terry and HeriG went to their side and they started talking a lot about the yoga thingy. When May reached the cafe, she also went to their side. Even all that, Heri and Aaron was nice enough to stay with me. At least Weng Yue and Tiff also did join us. We became 2 separate groups. Somehow, it's like we were being abandoned by a whole bunch of ppl u see. I guess they're really just college friends. It's not the same like how it goes for animals and I. They're just not the same.
Everyone is lying down on the bed. And myself? Blogging. It's already 3 something..and I'm still up. I don't want the day to end so soon. The beginning of the week is coming and we have to start all over again. Classes, tests and friends. I'm just tired. I'm sick of it. I need a break! And that will be in December. Not long from now. But it also means that my mid course is coming. I'm in deep shit now. I haven't started studying and all, I haven't chosen my topic for my research project, I haven't make up my mind on what I really wanna do.. basically, I'm wasting my life.
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Recently, there's this 1 rumour spreading among the students as well as among the teachers. It all started with Harish, at the 2nd floor foyer. He just said that word. Lol, Aaron didn't answer, but he just went on laughing, down on the floor AND he went all red in face. Believe me, it was that red. It's so not his style. He's the type who will never care bout things like this. Shavika was there, Harish, Erica as well as HeriG. Pls don't do this in front of Heri please. I don't want him to know. Harish was chasing Aaron the whole way and was teasing him continuously. Lol. Luckily, one of the lecturers scolded them for making so much noise. Thank you so much. Terry did mention before bout this. I wonder if this true? Kinda think of it, I rmb him buying bus ticket for me. I mean, from Audi 7 to the financial dept. It's really far, and Malaysian Studies was about to start. Then I rmb him running to the lecturer just to get the notes for me. I rmb him with the waffle and bubble tea as well. Haha, that was really funny. I rmb being with him in the library with that 'stalker' by our side. I rmb him always pushing my head, messing with my hair, knocking me etc. Even with all these memories, he's still too childish. He's not my type of guy. Ever since the day Harish asked, he kept on pursuing Aaron to ask me out. Lol. Excuse me? Last Wednesday was even worse, Hong Kong shouted in front of everyone in the 2nd floor foyer, saying that I'm Aaron's gf, when everyone's class just over. My goodness! Right in front of Ms Helen. Luckily I wasn't there. Or not, where am I suppose to put my face? Great, Shaq was questioning me, Marcus was talking 2 Josh bout me. Meena was talking to me about him. She actually asked him 2 weeks before, and he did that same thing again. Lol? She said that news kinda stopped a while. She didn't know how it came back. Omg, I didn't noe that! She even said that he kept on talking bout me to them. Ms Helen helped spreading the news. Aaron is famous for his annoying attitude, so they tend to tease him more than me. That's good. Nothing more will ever happen btwn the both of us for sure. Maybe, the reason for all these is because I can tolerate with his attitude more compare to the rest. That might be it. Yup, I'm sure of it. Then there was once, I was sitting with Aaron...we saw Ms Helen. She was giving signal with that big smile on her face. Lol, so swt.
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HeriG, please don't misunderstood. I didn't mean it that way. I have never even thought of it that way. I just asked for the fun of it. It's not a signal okay. No wonder, ur personal msg used to be those words. I was wondering who was it for. On the next day he found out bout Aaron, he sms-ed me. He said he wants to talk. Just me and him. I got scared. I wonder what would he think? Luckily it wasn't really what I expected. We cleared off some stuffs btwn the both of us. He learnt this method through yoga class. And it worked! Seriously, it does. Now we both returned to normal. Thank god.. Well, about his brother? Somehow, he's more unique, which I dunno why. That was what Terry said to us too. I love to see his face! In fact I still smile every time I see him, coz he got this extremely shy look which can make anyone trust him straight away. Take note, I might be exaggerating a lil over there. He got this really quiet attitude and he's really hardworking. Too bad he doesn't really speak much of English. But he's learning. He's always with the dictionary. What more, I just found out that he got bronze medal for physics competition. Out of whole of Indonesia and he got 100 for Maths B for 2 previous tests. Really really smart. I don't believe it, I'm interested in a 'nerd'? @.@' Interested as in to noe him more as a person. Nothing else. So no worries! Hahaha! This afternoon, when the Tom, Li Ching and Erica sat in one table, Terry and HeriG went to their side and they started talking a lot about the yoga thingy. When May reached the cafe, she also went to their side. Even all that, Heri and Aaron was nice enough to stay with me. At least Weng Yue and Tiff also did join us. We became 2 separate groups. Somehow, it's like we were being abandoned by a whole bunch of ppl u see. I guess they're really just college friends. It's not the same like how it goes for animals and I. They're just not the same.
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There's this girl. I've been jealous of her for quite some time now. It's like how Lin felt towards a girl. I understand how it feels like. Sometimes, u just cant stop feeling jealous. Even if u don't want to but u just can't help it. Let's face it. She's cute, she's talkative, she always makes things really interesting, she loves making jokes, she CAN turn anyone to be her good friend, she's a really nice person. Most of all, she's always in the center of attention whenever she goes. She will be the 1 who do the talking most of the time. She somehow sort of knows everything. Who can't help feeling that way? Especially if that person is in the same class as u, for ALL subjects. Cool huh? Everyone noes her name. I don't think many noes mine. Not that I really care of, but sometimes, I want to be the one. I want to be someone. I sometimes feel that, no matter how hard I try, there's no way I can beat her. I just can't be her. Whenever I talk to someone, I kept on comparing myself with her. How she will always get ppl to laugh and all. There's always sparks in her you know. Seriously, I feel really insecure. I'm not the type who can talk much. I do have a hard time expressing how I really feel, unless i get really close with someone. One thing is, I don't think she likes me much. She's always with Mabel, that's for sure. No matter how hard I try to help her, she will always turn to Mabel first, or just anyone before me. Even if I score better in the subject than the both of them. Not that I'm showing off, but she...will always try to help her whenever she could. In csc lab, she purposely changed her seat to be with Mabel. Don't you get it? It somehow reminds me of Ns as well. Like how Mato treated me and Yi Ping like that. We're not substitutes okay. I hate it! It makes me feel so lonely inside. I don't want Mabel to join csc back. It made things worse now. They will always sit together and blab throughout the lesson, while me staring at the teacher all the way. Then, they will leave me behind, while I have to go with Kim and Tanrin. Mostly, I'm always alone. Even during Acc class, HeriG will now sit with her. Last time, I used to wait for them but they never even think of doing anything like that to me okay. It hurts.. it hurts so bad. Imagine someone u noe does that to u all the time. I dun give a damn bout it anymore. I just walked off with Janice. But, I care about how others treat me. I want someone who cares bout me. Maybe, that's y I dun mind Aaron disturbing me. Maybe, it's because he will always come to me no matter where I go. He came on his own. This is what I want. This is what I only need from a person. To have someone who cares for me, and will always be by my side. Why can't I find someone like that? My goodness, I'm being too emo. Cut the crap.
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"Yao Yuen Mou Fan". I learned that word from Erica. It's seriously true. Even if u like someone, somehow, the friendship will never go further than it is now. I wonder who I thought of first? Is it him... or is it another person? Who knows? If I didn't go for it, possibly it might even happen. He can even remember that. And, I really really love his birthday wish. That's for sure. He was almost perfect. Our characteristics are almost similar. I wonder how we got so close last time? He did not even make me feel nervous at all. He's not the type who can mix around with ppl, especially girls but then...why? The memories we had together are just too precious for me to let go. =) I will always cherish it forever.
The night I went out with my friends, SJ heard me talking to Jin, she was asking.. is it him?? I immediately said no. I'm trying to deny that fact u know, even though it is a lil true. Just a little. And that was last time. Not now. I think. She even asked me not to fall in love with him before. Jin was saying.. dun ever be the 3rd party. U wont like it if someone does this to you. Yes, yes.. I understand.. My goodness, with the new timetable, I will be in the bus with him almost everyday. May did tell me it was kinda obvious. She said I act differently when I'm with him. Is this true? I hope not. But when I'm with him, I will always think more. That's why I sometimes can get really quiet.
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"Yao Yuen Mou Fan". I learned that word from Erica. It's seriously true. Even if u like someone, somehow, the friendship will never go further than it is now. I wonder who I thought of first? Is it him... or is it another person? Who knows? If I didn't go for it, possibly it might even happen. He can even remember that. And, I really really love his birthday wish. That's for sure. He was almost perfect. Our characteristics are almost similar. I wonder how we got so close last time? He did not even make me feel nervous at all. He's not the type who can mix around with ppl, especially girls but then...why? The memories we had together are just too precious for me to let go. =) I will always cherish it forever.
The night I went out with my friends, SJ heard me talking to Jin, she was asking.. is it him?? I immediately said no. I'm trying to deny that fact u know, even though it is a lil true. Just a little. And that was last time. Not now. I think. She even asked me not to fall in love with him before. Jin was saying.. dun ever be the 3rd party. U wont like it if someone does this to you. Yes, yes.. I understand.. My goodness, with the new timetable, I will be in the bus with him almost everyday. May did tell me it was kinda obvious. She said I act differently when I'm with him. Is this true? I hope not. But when I'm with him, I will always think more. That's why I sometimes can get really quiet.
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It doesn't matter if we will meet again,
It doesn't matter if you will remember me,
I just want to tell you a secret,
I love you...
It doesn't matter if you will remember me,
I just want to tell you a secret,
I love you...
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