Finally..

All the while I thought I will be celebrating with Harry Potter's fans at KLCC. I waited full of anxiety for the final chapter after I read the 6th book. However, my heart just dropped after I saw the original price. RM109.90!!! For one book. Man, Rowling really got the guts to sell such price. I read The Star Metro that day, the first 3 ppl on the line who reach Kinokuniya will receive a free copy of Deathly Hollow with the author's signature on the cover. Lol, I know I don't stand the chance. For those die hard fans, they will surely reach much earlier than me. Worse still, if I go, I will have to sit train early in the morning. So swt. So I just cancel everything, especially after Yoongs decided NOT to follow with me today. There's no way I'm gonna show up alone at KLCC with so many ppl around me. I don't wanna meet anyone I know over there. It will be totally weird and awkward then.
My luck changed after my mom asked me to follow them to Carrefour to order my contact lens. I really couldn't wait. I wanted to go in the morning, but no, they refused. Finally, we left the house at 2.30pm. Lucky enough, there's still enough stock for about 100 ppl. I asked my dad,

"Dad, I wanna buy...can ar?? I got money."
"69 Dollars only? So cheap huh."

Yahoo!! I can buy!! Lol, I went straight towards the booth and chose the best one. Paid up and headed home. It's not exactly how I wanted to be..but, who cares bout the games, parties, free quills, free mugs, free Starbucks breakfast set when I can get it in a cheaper rate? ^^

Confession of a Teenage Girl

"I'm president for chess club and vice president for interact club"

"What post do u hold at home? Nothing!! Sweep floor also didn't"

Instead of complimenting my sis, that was all she said. Come on, it's not that easy to hold such posts okay, and this is really high. Plus, she's a prefect. That too. Why can't she just say words like good gal or smart?? Instead, she uses vulgar words like stupid, dumb, chi la kak, lazy, crazy etc... Omg, u can really cry if this goes on continuously. Seriously, u wouldn't want to be in her wrong side. My mom loves to over-stress... stress over real small matter and always in the rush to complete everything. Her shouts can just shake the whole house. I know Yiings couldn't stand it..that's y she used to lock herself in the room.. and now same goes to Yoongs. U know, the more she force me to do stuff, the more I don't want to do.. I know I'm evil, but I really cant help it. The way she order us.. =( However, it's not entirely her fault, I admit it's mine as well.

Fine with me if this is her style, but she now always picks up lil fights with my dad. Keep on arguing... almost everyday. Argue over food, money, appointments and all. It's really scary just seeing them argue. This had been going on ever since my dad retired. Sometimes I wonder, are they still together bcoz of us? Luckily my dad got the nerve to scold her back, saying she's wrong. And I actually agree with my dad everytime. So does my sisters. So yeah, we corrected her indirectly... It will all then go down to education. Saying herself stupid for only studying till form 5, poor, being adopted by another person, saying her parents cant read, no tuition teachers to help her etc. She thinks differently coz she was brought up in another way. As wat my dad told her. She once said that dad always didn't side her, always side his OWN siblings. No one does!! I was like...? NO, that's not true!! That's just wat u think.. but u cant just talk bad bout dad's family or blame the rest okay.

My mom had been trying to contact my bro in Aussie as well. It's been days since he called back home. She was so worried till she called the office of his uni. Now, everyone knows bout his case. So yeah, he called back at last. He said he failed 2 papers. T.T Omg!! He'll be sitting for his sub test tomorrow.

"Jou meh lei kam chun geh? Lei kam cha ke meh? Har?"

Imagine u fail, and if u fail the sub papers, u will have to repeat the whole sem again. Whole 3 months. And it's not these kinda words u want to hear all day. At least try to be understanding, wish him luck watsoever. Yiings failed 1 of her papers before too. And she's a straight A student. Even her friends said she doesnt knows what B is. That smart. Kor, I really wish you will pass ur papers tomorrow. Wish you all the best~
No matter how wrong she is, no matter how fierce she is, I will always love my mummy dearest. Although it's not shown, I still care for her... always. I will really fulfill your wish after you...

AUTHOR : I might change my mind in a few hours time.LOL. except for the last few sentences. ^^

Special Thanks

I would like to thank these few friends... VinCen, Ben and Yiyi for having me as their buddy. =P Really had a great time last night, just chatting... I had never felt tat way for such a long time. Haha, and Yiyi, Korea Folktown is a damn nice place, especially the pic we took near the moon. ~Fly Me to The Moon~ I am really glad for having such friends, might not be many..but still, I love them all. Lol ^^ Besides that, I really appreciate Matt, Wayne, Steven, Aspen, and Kennysee. There is more to just being a great mit than I thought. Friendship is much more important. Haha, and I choose that over power. =)

~When You Wish Upon a Star~

~Under The Moonlight~

Happy Birthday!!!

~07.07.07~ A special day for someone special =D

Happy birthday to my dearest duckie. It was the day when we ALL animals actually get to hang out together. After just 3 hours of sleep, I woke up to get myself ready. Yeah, supposedly meeting Ms Eu Li Nar earlier at 10am at Ts. After mc-ing her for like 5 times and msg her twice, I gave up. Guess what? She arrived with the birthday girl AND they were in the train TOGETHER. So sweat. So I walked around ALONE for 1 hour, searching for lin's present. Sorry lin for the last minute shopping. At last I found something I like alot, something which i wouldn't buy for myself though. I was feeling really nervous coz quite some time i haven't met up with them. What if there's nothin to chat with them? What if they think I'm boring? Weird huh? Im not really the type which can go real hyper or crazy. At 11am, Lin called me...asking me where am i? She dong lar...reached already also never tell!! Wanna play me some more.. was searchin for them, walking aimlessly around the 3rd floor. Then sudd jin and beaver was behind me!! Omg, eu jin...so lala! T.T But she actually looked really nice. Haha. =p dont kembang so much jin. Then we met up with Lin and Nar near the cinema. Haha, they all look so different. We stood there quite long to chat. So happy to see them.

We went to find KL and SJ at Sg Wang. SJ looked so cute!! Her bandana damn yeng. KL also noes how to dress up ady. ^^ The best part was... Lin, Jin and I wore black while KL, SJ, Nar and beaver wore white. So damn coincidence. We really got tat semangat setiahaiwan thingy, coz we all think alike. We camwhore alot next to digi and some of them actually looked good. Kinda think of it, we seldom do that, and now we have another nice group photo of us all animals. Love it. But my hair suck to the max at that moment... AND it's not easy okay.. There's always something weird in it.

At 3pm, we went to greenbox. Actually when Lin suggested that we all go sing k at first, I wasn't really excited. Coz they always choose Chinese songs. I'm a banana!! I don't even NOE how to read. Now even worse, my Chinese songs now really outdated. Sweat. But, I was wrong. We sang MLTR's songs, Westlife, Lemon Tree and all mostly 90's. Thanks to Bernard and Yi Hong. After some time, Ann arrived with a bloody hell nice cake with her. Lin was so shocked and was even in tears. I can see that she was so touched, she hugged Ann first...then everyone else. We even sang happy birthday song for her. =P Then they started smacking cream over each other. Lin got the most for sure, Lin said KL and SJ were like raping her. Haha! Oh, one thing... do I looked like Jin?? Twice beaver thought so...and even Ann?? Jin, I think i stuck too long with you already.

After karaoke, SJ and Nar went back. The rest stayed for dinner. We had brainstorming session..plan on goin clubbing, Steven's corner, bangsar and all. Waste time. KL and I were like giving signals to each other. I know she weren't interested to go clubbing. Neither was I. Then we played the basketball thingy, was so fun! Reminded me bout the times KL and I played at Ts. She was good. ^^ Finally, someone decided to have dinner at Gasoline. KL, Jin and I talked among ourselves. At first it was all about college, then it became more and more personal. I was actually close to tears when I told them how I actually felt, instead of denying and saying that I don't give a damn bout him from my previous posts. Those stuffs I told them were real. I really understood how KL was feeling. It was some sort like mine. I mean, from what she told me...it was almost the same!! Hers was slightly better, at least they discussed bout it. At least they were CLEAR about it. What bout mine? Nothing!! I still feel hurt when he wrote in the personal msg such as :

I will catch you when you fall;

let me light up the sky, light it up for you... I will never let you go;

I want to be Bumblebee..

Those msgs seem to meant for another girl. Or was he just being syok sendiri? He used to put something like that too before we got together. He likes these kind of words... but he dare not say words like these in front of girls. So far he is the only person who can actually send the type of songs which I would like. Damn it, I still couldn't get over him completely...=( AND hell I dun even know whether he likes another girl or not. I don't dare to ask him. I mean... come on, he's studying at Tar. I still feel sad whenever I think bout us..I still do miss him.

~Drinks anyone?~

~Animals Forever~

~No one realized KL took this photo~

~6 of us again~

~Nar and I~

Emotions

It's been some time since i last felt this way. It's like been... I dunno!! Emotions have been going around me. Hurt, betrayed, disappointment... To be honest, it's really a small matter, but if this goes on continuously, I wont be able to stand it like i used to anymore. Why are you acting like this? Why am i taking it so seriously? Why am i so selfish? It's all Why Why Why? I hate this feeling so much!! It's not suppose to be this way! The rest surely would not notice these things till they themselves goes through like how i did.. Maybe, they don't think it's much of a problem after all.

I seriously wanna cry badly..but kinda think of it.. it is rather stupid okay!! To cry over such things. I really want to tell this to someone at least, instead of just writing it here..but i cant, get it!! I just cant. Not even to my sis, not even to my friends, and not even to that person. People will think I'm selfish. But, it's not entirely true!! I just cant stand people doing this, that's all. Is it a bad thing? Weird though, when we start chatting, all my feelings before just disappeared!! The question is.. why?

Somehow or rather, there are times which i noticed your words are damn sharp. Even though it weren't meant for me, but still... it hurts alot you know.. Even if it meant for the person you love. All those acts, it's exactly how you want others to view you. Right? You said so before. Being such a ****. Maybe, I'm the one with the problem, not that person. It's me being syok sendiri or whatsoever. Seriously, I'm confused!! Or am i just jealous?

I couldn't tell you

Why she felt that way

She felt it everyday

And I couldn't help her

I just watched her make

The same mistakes again

(Avril Lavigne ~ Nobody's Home)