Emotions

It's been some time since i last felt this way. It's like been... I dunno!! Emotions have been going around me. Hurt, betrayed, disappointment... To be honest, it's really a small matter, but if this goes on continuously, I wont be able to stand it like i used to anymore. Why are you acting like this? Why am i taking it so seriously? Why am i so selfish? It's all Why Why Why? I hate this feeling so much!! It's not suppose to be this way! The rest surely would not notice these things till they themselves goes through like how i did.. Maybe, they don't think it's much of a problem after all.

I seriously wanna cry badly..but kinda think of it.. it is rather stupid okay!! To cry over such things. I really want to tell this to someone at least, instead of just writing it here..but i cant, get it!! I just cant. Not even to my sis, not even to my friends, and not even to that person. People will think I'm selfish. But, it's not entirely true!! I just cant stand people doing this, that's all. Is it a bad thing? Weird though, when we start chatting, all my feelings before just disappeared!! The question is.. why?

Somehow or rather, there are times which i noticed your words are damn sharp. Even though it weren't meant for me, but still... it hurts alot you know.. Even if it meant for the person you love. All those acts, it's exactly how you want others to view you. Right? You said so before. Being such a ****. Maybe, I'm the one with the problem, not that person. It's me being syok sendiri or whatsoever. Seriously, I'm confused!! Or am i just jealous?

I couldn't tell you

Why she felt that way

She felt it everyday

And I couldn't help her

I just watched her make

The same mistakes again

(Avril Lavigne ~ Nobody's Home)