Happy 2nd Anniversary

It was MapleSEA Birthday yesterday!!

Yoongs and I woke up damn early to be the first 300 to join the 3 day Birthday Carnival at Cineleisure. Mind you, we got 2 cool to be true coupon which to be used during the game. (Bonus in-game item set) Anywayz, we exchanged our used prepaid cards for the Birthday Quest Game Challenges. Games based on each character ~ Warrior, Magician, Thief, and Bowman. Haha, It was great! The games were a little lame...just right for all kids aged 8 and 14. (mostly nerdy looking computer freaks) So many kids were lining up to play.

Haha, reminded me bout the times in Genting. We even asked a guy to help us out in Perion coz we weren't strong enough. Hey, if you say I'm addicted..u haven't seen the rest yet. I was really impressed with their parents who bought for them all the cash cards. And not just one or two, but I saw around 20 each. God, Yoongs and I have only 8, total of RM192.

We left the event place around 12.30pm to buy the movie tickets : Fantastic 4, Rise of the Silver Surfer. Shrek was our first choice, but they were sold out. Yoongs wasn't really into the movie though. Movie is at 4pm at Cathay Cineplax. After buying, we went back to the carnival, Cai Shen NPC was there! Haha!! He looked so...chinese. Wearing the chinese costume like from those old chinese opera, plus his slang, Haha! Thought we will get some free maple items or even gachapon tickets. Lol, he was there only to give out balloons, that's all. Swt. Lucky for us, we got one each as well. Yoongs asked for a flower, he made a really really ugly dead looking 3 petals flower. Not the usual ones. Mine was special, a little cute-not bear. ^^ We were like "What...so ugly!!" Besides that, we redeemed item at the item shop. From our 110 mesos, we only got 2 memo pads and a notebook.I actually wanted the maple tag, but it costs 150 mesos each. So DAMN expensive wey!! Actually, earning 110 mesos is nothing. I heard others earning 3000 mesos. So Siao~~

Later on, we had lunch at Shiok.Then...shopping!!! Haha, to pass our time lar. I bought a skirt...only. At 4pm, we watched movie. The movie was fantastic, the place was fantastic, and the clothes were fantastic...tambah tambah cerita nia. XP We then had our last look at the event. Still so many ppl. We gave our extra mesos to a kid nearby. Then went home bout 6 something. That's basically it. =)

On To a Next Stage

There was a time

I packed my dreams away

Hiding from myself.

There was a time when i was so afraid

I thought I'd reached the end.

That was then.

But I am more than my yesterdays.

This is my now.

(Jordin Sparks ~ This is My Now *Edited*)

New Life, New Resolutions and New Songs.

Well, i passed my Undang exam all right. I just managed to slip through. Lol, i guessed i really underestimated it. Hey, but you don't know how nervous I was before the exam. Gotta work much harder of this. =) Anywayz, I did some changes in terms of my looks. Certain parts which i really wanted to change for a long time. Haha, but it is still under construction. I hope it turns out good. We'll see lar. It took about 2 hours plus for me to suffer (The music doesnt help!!), 1 hour to chop of everything and 40 minutes for me to take it off. Girls are really girls. I cant just change the fact right? No matter how hard i try, I Am a girl still, forever and ever. I cant believe i care bout this so much. I really wanna be...I might not be able to compete with 3 of them for sure, but I just wanna noe how it feels like, to be someone you know. I often feel jealous, especially when she compliments them. But what are her usual comments on me? The same thing, over and over again. It's as if I dunno my own problem

Resolutions for June, July and August 2007

- My masterpiece

- Music sheets

- Maple level 70

My top 5 songs

- Avril lavigne

- When You're Gone

- Jordan Knight ~ Say Goodbye Feat. Deborah Gibson

- RBD ~ Tu Amor

- Avril Lavigne ~ My Happy Ending

- Shayne Ward ~ No Promises

Judgement Day

Issac Newton Predicts End of World in 2060 - Star June 18 2007.

I wonder if his research is true? What will happen at that very moment? Is it the kind like from Terminator 3?? But this time, no one will be surviving. Maybe, we will all be transported to Mars by then..if possible. Haha, what am i thinking? Everyone will die eventually, it's just a matter of time. There's no point of thinking about it right?? I sometimes wonder, what will happen after death? Will we be asleep 24/7? Is there such thing as reborn? Or maybe the life bridge as the Chinese believe in? Or will we turn into animals? Does Heaven and Hell exist? What about ghosts, angels and devils? I don't really believe in all these though. As what my dad had said, we will be sleeping as usual..just that we will never wake up..

To tell you the truth, I'm not scared about life after death but more concern of minutes before death. Will i be killed by a murderer? Or will i die of illness or old age? Things like this scares the hell out of me..especially during the night. Haha, imagine me in the coffin buried underneath or worse, cremation?? If i die, I want to die in peace, not going through the process of suffocation. Preferably I want to put into a deep sleep, and you guys can do what ever with me. =)

Believe in what you feel inside,

And give your dreams the wings to fly.

Life ends when you stop dreaming,

If you just believe.

(Josh Groban ~ Believe *Edited*)

Joys and Sorrows..

I have in my hands two boxes,

Which God gave me to hold.

He said, "Put all your sorrows in the black box,

And all your joys in the gold."

I heeded His words, and in the two boxes,

Both my joys and sorrows I stored,

But though the gold became heavier each day,

The black was as light as before.

With curiosity, I opened the black,

I wanted to find out why,

And I saw, in the base of the box, a hole,

Which my sorrows had fallen out by.

I showed the hole to God, and mused,

"I wonder where my sorrows could be!" He smiled a gentle smile and said,

"My child, they're all here with me.."

I asked God, why He gave me the boxes,

Why the gold and the black with the hole?

"My child, the gold is for you to count your blessings,

The black is for you to let go."

Do You Know?

Do you know that i suffered alot during that grace period? =( Everyone thought i was having fun and have no worries at all. It's not true!! I thought i could start a new life, to have many frens and to be outstanding there. Even at the beginning of the journey, it sucks to the max. I noe it's not their fault or whatsoever, but i can't help feeling like that right? It's always been like this..no matter where i go..it will still stay the same. I just want them to understand how it actually feel to have this disadvantage. They just say they do, but they still dont, coz it's not them..get it? I was IN their gang, but i wasnt PART of it. They do care bout me and stuff, but it's different. We just cant be that close as i want them to be.There was once we had a heart-to heart talk, i was actually feeling bored..it's not that i'm cold blooded, it's coz i dun understand okay? And to have these people 24/7 with me, i just cant stand it anymore. I never cried so many times in my life in such a short while.

So, in the end..I went all quiet and became the outsider as usual. I dun care bout it anymore..as long as i knew i get to run away earlier. In another person's point of view, i was actually quite famous over there. She said i knew alot of people. I was like...izzit? Maybe i should thank that one guy..hahaha! Him and his frens, for spreading such a rumour. But kinda think of it..i dun like that rumour one bit. But hey, you dont know how angry i was towards him. I was damn pissed!! Luckily, most of these ppl no longer exist in my life already. Lol, i'm so mean. =.='

"I guessed I noe the answer...gotta return my phone today"

"You sure you noe the answer?"

I was certain i was so sure at first, till i read his msg..he made me sceptical..to tell you the truth, i duno...

"I believe time will answer everything =P"

"Why do you always make me smile at your msg?"

"Coz...you deserve that from me."

"BUt why do I feel so insecure? I dun even noe wat are you thinking rite now".

Time does answer everything. Hahaha.

Singapore Trip

29th May 07 till 4th June 07

This trip so far was one of the best trip this year. We are actually not following tour group..haha, that's big news. I was really glad that my dad decided to take bus instead of driving to Singapore..considering he had been working hard all these while, it's time for him to relax and not worry a thing. It's a great experience, as my family and i getting closer day by day..despite mum's singing always. Yiings gave us sisters SGD 100 each for us to go shopping! I spent about SGD 95.50..hey, at least i didnt exceed the limit right? I bought a top and a skirt, watch, pooh bear and the creative art thingy. What more, we get to eat good food everyday without spending a penny..sort of.. Haha, just exaggerating a lil. And did i mention good food? More of healthy food actually.

What else?? we met up with my future in-laws, just Brother Junlin's parents, himself and her younger sis. To build up our muscles, my WHOLE family even went cycling for 2 hours. Haha, even ma yee can cycle at last.. Yiings paid most of our expenses throughout our trip, and that includes our accomodation; SGD 800 for 7D/6N. That's alot of money. But, it is an expensive apartment. Yap had been taking us around too, he is extremely nice and funny! But he had suffered alot, with his wife in jail for cheating his money and his drop-out daughther. I pitied him. I dunno y God did this to him. For sure, he doesnt deserve all these. Okay, back to our trip. Anyway, I've been drinking lots of liquor..not the type which can get drunk lar.

Lastly, we went back home by train and ate McD for dinner. The main reason my mum arranged this trip was to visit Yiings in her workplace. So, Dr Lee Yiing Yiing checked our teeth for free. =) That's the end of it. These are the few places i went during this trip :

Wednesday :

- Aeroline ( Rm80 each )

- Rio Vista

- East Coast ( Seafood ) ~ Water skiing

- Changi Airport and Village ( Aeroplane )

- Famous Nasi Lemak

Thursday :

- ChinaTown

-Vivo City

- Lei Garden ( Junlin's family )

Friday :

- Takashimaya

- Boat Quey ( Dinner )

- Clarke Quey ( Hootes )

Saturday :

- Hougang Plaza

- Cycling

- Downtown East ( Katong Laksa )

-Cards

Sunday :

- Junlin's House ( SengKang Srt )

- Mount Faber ( Peak )

- Upper and Lower Reservoir Park

- Marine Square

- Future Sans Casino (IR)

- Pasir Ris ( BBQ 2 in 1 )

- Yap's House

Monday :

- Woodlands ( Dentist )

- Causeway Point

- Hougang ( Dinner )

Tuesday :

- Hou Nam ( Prawn Mee )

- Train Station

Memories..

It's exactly one month since i last seen Kem Benum Hill Resort. My holiday is well spent of coz..for, i had settled some of the stuff which i didnt last time. And on the plus side, i really really enjoyed my holiday and i have no regrets at all. Well, lots of things happened these past few weeks too..dissapointing, mix feelings, and even shocking news?? To find out that she actually feels this way, i must say..i kinda misjudged her you know? Never in my life i've expected that. There's still something though..it's not nice..but i just cant write it out.

On the first week, what i've done so far :

- Stayed overnight at Hotel Corus

- KLCC ( Harry Potter series )

- Went to grandmother's house

- Unpacked my luggage

- Cleaned my drawer, wadrobe, cupboard and my room

- Washed my clothes and shoes

- Computer

2nd week :

- A one night stay with Yiings and Brother Junlin

- Tai Thong Restaurant ( Dim Sum )

- Ninja Jones Japanese Restaurant

- Facial

- Carrefour

- Jusco

- Met up with Cat ( Vin'z Corner )

3rd week :

- Karaoke ( Sg Wang )

- Ti-Ratana Welfare Society

- Arranged my folders in computer

- Dad's assignment

4th week :

- Singapore ( 1 week )

- Genting

- Seafood ( Klang )

- Afternoon tea ( Mandarin Oriental )

- Contact lens

- Registered driving lessons

Say Goodbye

This is it. 'Say Goodbye' by Jordan Knight Feat. Deborah Gibson.

Jordan

I've been so lost lately

I don't really understand baby

Where did i go wrong

I wanna talk to you

Please call

Deborah

Where do I begin with you

after all that we've been through

I don't think that it would be right if we

Got together so suddenly

Jordan

I wish that I could take back all the things that I said

and replace them with simply I love you instead

***Deborah

You don't wanna say goodbye

But you never really seem like you wanna try

Jordan

But I only wanted you to stay

then I let you just slip away

Deborah

If you didn't listen to your heart inside

then it really doesn't matter what was on your mind

and if you need me then tell me why

Jordan

Girl, I never meant to say goodbye

Jordan

I think about the past baby

Why we couldn't make it last, lady

I know you still have doubts

But I'm gonna probe that we can work things out

Deborah

I wanna be sure that you know what you put me through

and reveal that you intend to never let me down again

Jordan

It's clear to me and I can't ignore

that I have to give you something I couldn't before

***

Deborah

I didn't think that we would come to this

Jordan

Ooh, noYour eyes, your face, your smile is what I miss

Deborah

Why'd you wait so long to take me back

Deborah & Jordan

It's all a simple misunderstanding

***

When You're Gone

Everytime i listen to this song, it surely gives me goosebumps. Or worse, cry.. I dunno, memories just kept flashing back. The times we used to call each other up for no reason. The times we used to contact in msn. The times we were once together. And maybe, the times when i once loved him. It's all over, I know it. There is not even a single hope i can place on him. He, who does not even try. If it weren't for National Service, we might stay together. If i didn't ask whom he had a crush on last time, we might have a chance. Who knows?

But, what's done is done. No use regretting for what had happened. Instead, i should feel lucky for having such an experience. But why can't i let him go? Well, i did actually. To others and he himself. My mind doesnt agree with me though. That i can't deny. I still want to know how is he doing right now, whether he is all right? Or perhaps, if he has a crush on other girls? I dunno, it's just too complicated till i cant even put it in words. I really wish, or rather, for him to place the first step, instead of me doing it for him. Anyway, i should get on with my life and live life to the fullest!! It may seems like having someone special i really care about might be the most important thing right now, but to have my animals, friends and family who cares for me more, i am certainly the luckiest girl in the world.

'When You're Gone' by Avril Lavigne.

I always needed time on my own

I never thought I'd need you there when I cried

And the days feel like years when I'm alone

And the bed where you lieIs made up on your side

When you walk away

I count the steps that you take

Do you see how much I need you right now?

*** When you're gone

The pieces of my heart are missing you

When you're gone

The face I came to know is missing too

When you're gone

The words I need to hear to always get me through the day

And make it okay

I miss you

I've never felt this way before

Everything that I do

Reminds me of you

And the clothes you left

They lie on the floor

And they smell just like you

I love the things that you do

When you walk away

I count the steps that you take

Do you see how much I need you right now?

***

We were made for each other

Out here forever

I know we were

Yeah, yeah

And all I ever wanted was for you to know

Everything I do I give my heart and soul

I can hardly breathe I need to feel you here with me

Yeah

***