When You're Gone

Everytime i listen to this song, it surely gives me goosebumps. Or worse, cry.. I dunno, memories just kept flashing back. The times we used to call each other up for no reason. The times we used to contact in msn. The times we were once together. And maybe, the times when i once loved him. It's all over, I know it. There is not even a single hope i can place on him. He, who does not even try. If it weren't for National Service, we might stay together. If i didn't ask whom he had a crush on last time, we might have a chance. Who knows?

But, what's done is done. No use regretting for what had happened. Instead, i should feel lucky for having such an experience. But why can't i let him go? Well, i did actually. To others and he himself. My mind doesnt agree with me though. That i can't deny. I still want to know how is he doing right now, whether he is all right? Or perhaps, if he has a crush on other girls? I dunno, it's just too complicated till i cant even put it in words. I really wish, or rather, for him to place the first step, instead of me doing it for him. Anyway, i should get on with my life and live life to the fullest!! It may seems like having someone special i really care about might be the most important thing right now, but to have my animals, friends and family who cares for me more, i am certainly the luckiest girl in the world.

'When You're Gone' by Avril Lavigne.

I always needed time on my own

I never thought I'd need you there when I cried

And the days feel like years when I'm alone

And the bed where you lieIs made up on your side

When you walk away

I count the steps that you take

Do you see how much I need you right now?

*** When you're gone

The pieces of my heart are missing you

When you're gone

The face I came to know is missing too

When you're gone

The words I need to hear to always get me through the day

And make it okay

I miss you

I've never felt this way before

Everything that I do

Reminds me of you

And the clothes you left

They lie on the floor

And they smell just like you

I love the things that you do

When you walk away

I count the steps that you take

Do you see how much I need you right now?

***

We were made for each other

Out here forever

I know we were

Yeah, yeah

And all I ever wanted was for you to know

Everything I do I give my heart and soul

I can hardly breathe I need to feel you here with me

Yeah

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