On The Outside, Looking In..

I haven't been blogging for quite some time now. Should I say busy? Or lazy? Or there's no stories at all? What have I been doin for these past few months? I had such great opportunity, to relax, to do nothing. There's no turning back now. I've reached the turning point of my life. In few days time, I'll be starting a new life. Finally, I'm in the same league as everyone else. I wish I could be somebody in college. I really do. I just wanna now how it feels. Based on my previous experience, I realized that I was a nobody during high school. I wasn't recognized by them at all. I mean, even during class... besides Jin, there's nobody else. On the last day of school, everyone was like saying their farewell, where was I? What was I doing? I doubt that they will miss me at all.
During Ns, I rmb a Malay gal saying that I'm not those typical chinese kl gal. Lol, what did she exactly mean anyway?

Somehow or rather, I just couldn't find the words to start a conversation with someone. There's no topics which I can find interesting to them. That's why I usually feel awkward when there's just two of us alone. Especially ppl whom I don't really know well. I want to make friends with certain ppl, just that I don't know how. Ppl do find me boring though, sad case. Secretive and quiet. Lol, just because I rarely open up to others, which I don't anyhow know why. However, I feel more comfortable just chatting online, where I don't need to face them. No awkwardness when it gone all quiet or something. Haha. I wish things would change once I start college. Change to the better.