Did twice for rehearsal that day. Was quite OKAY though my English lecturers said I didn't move much. It looked like I wasn't enjoying. In fact, she used the word 'torturing' Lol?! However, Ivan was saying my movements are okay, compared to ****. Haha! That made me feel much better. Later on, we found out that we were the last to perform. Damn it, I wont be able to see the rest of the performances. I wanted to watch her so much. She did manage to overcome here fear, faced the crowd and did her thing. She sang really really well! Even from the outside. Haha! Finally our turn arrived. Went in, and lol, the crowd.. were really supportive?? Swt. The starting was quite synchronized and went it came to the middle part, I pulled down his pants too much~~ LOL. Omg man, I felt so guilty. I was saying *shit* in my heart.. but just continued like normal. That was worse than us going too fast after the second part and the last part. We finished off quite OKAY i guessed. But it was really bad. I did enjoyed myself though. I wasn't that nervous when i faced infront of soooo many ppl. National Service really helped me alot in this. Thank you. Everyone was cheering like mad! Haha! Especially the part where we pulled down our partner's pants and showing their boxers. @.@ After all our hard work, it finally ended here. Really worth it. Results were announced. We didn't win, I wasn't surprised at all. All I know was May got 2nd placing!! Told ya she's good! Haha! I really felt soo happy for her. She really deserved it. We received a small trophy each as a token of appreciation. So swt.
Had my English Practice Essay today. It's so far one of the worst essays I've ever written. In just 1 hour, we were supposed to write bout 400-600 words. It may sound simple, but I tell u. It wasn't at all. I got pretty rusty after such a long time not using my brain. "If I had the guts to step on the scales". That's what I did. I thought of doing another topic as first, but then.. I changed my mind at the last minute."If I had the guts to socialized with the opposite sex". " and "if I had the guts to give birth".I sort of got it from Knock Up. Hehe.. I think, no matter what, I'll just write what had really happened for my English Test instead of making up stories. Ms Helen commented, "So short". Haha! I know it is, but I really didn't have the clue of what I was writing. Can I say that I was emotional disturbed? Stupid for me to wish for something which will nvr come true. Ppl already moved on. Anyway, it was really THAT short. Hopefully, I exceeded 400 words. Luckily I didn't sit beside Terry. He was writing and writing and writing. I thought sitting next to Tifanny will be better. Lol, it was as bad. In fact, she finished writing after 45 mins and left earlier. Okay, fine. During Accounts class, I just realized something. Omg, It was totally out of topic at the end. Wrong concept. Damn it! It's coz I just simply write some dumb stuffs to fill up the page. I don't want Ms Helen to mark my marks!! Sobz.
I'm really getting tired of my life right now. I can go moody all day, I usually keep some distances from the others, keeping quiet, and do my work without talking to anyone. Who wants to entertain a person like that? I dunno, today had had been really lonely. She was talking to that whole bunch of gang, while me standing at the side. I'm just tired. I don't feel like talking to my friends today. They did try to talk to me, I guessed I just gave them a cold shoulder till they prefer talk to others instead of me. Who ask me to be ultra sensitive? I want them to come to me, instead of me following them. I want them to just be with me. I was jealous all right, they made me feel so out and lonely. Especially when I see them link arms. I noe I don't do these kinda things, but if someone wants to do that with you, u will always do it right? Do they even care bout how I feel bout this? I really need support now. I noe, it's my own fault for not trying to get close to them. Ever heard of too late? I need someone whom I can confide to. Even if I did find a person, I will still never express my feelings though. I need something which can make me happier. I want to go back in time, and just live the way I used to live. If I continue feeling like this, I will surely break down one day. I cant believe I just ran away from ***. I really am sorry but I need to be alone for awhile.
~Teen Hoppers~
~Our Trophies!~
~With the 2nd Runner Up~
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